I haven't been updating this journal for a long time now. Bet I should tell you guys what I have been doing lately.

The in-sane part of my life
In this past year, I have been legaly justified as an Insane person - skitsophrenia (don't know how to spell it right). I have a split personality. The "other me" is called Raine. His history reads of 4-5 years of suffocated pain and hatred (I should let some steam off some times on something other than my wall). I have been doing nothing but taking pills and going to therapy for it.
My friends have started to fear me. I have started to go paranoid. My works contain more death, sorrow, pain and other negative stuff. I've been having sometrouble getting inspiration in my works because of it.
That is the hardest part in my life right now.

Singe and going strong.. ...I quess
I haven't been going out with anybody lately and that kinda sucks. I hate being alone. I have got 4-5 rejections in this past year. Everytime is the same reason: "I don't want a relationship, I don't know how to love, I just can't, I want to die alone" and other shit like that. I have a friend that I'm very close with. I love her. She rejected me aswell (quess the reasons). She just got hurt because I said it to her straight to the face. "I love you!". Man, why nobody loves you back nomore?

School sucks, as always
Going third year in our new high school. 777 students (some kinda sign?). It's realy crowded compared to the old high school - about 300 students. So much to learn in so little time. Going to go for the fourth year but hey, who knows.

ATTENTION SOLDIERS!
The army time is closing up fast. I'm in no condition to go in there. My knee is busted and for that, I'm a 170 cm 89kg boy. Fucking hell. I have no information about that thing either, the military. The skitsofrenic part goes in this category too (the disabels) and other stuff that runs through my veins trhough the family.

So that is much about it. Bet there is alot more, but can't recall them right now. Have a great life!